Feel like im losing myself more and more each day, I dont know what to do, keep being let down by friends, family, college and even my T.

just wish someone would say that its all going to be ok...and why...
i mean what do you do when you cannot get out of the situation thats quickly dragging you beneath the surface?

i am thinking maybe I should up my doseage of citalopram...the mental health hospital doctor person wanted me to up my doseage from 20, to 40 and then eventually 60, and gave me these anti depressants that are also like anti pyschotics....that made me nervous so i didnt take those or up my doesage...but maybe i should atleast up the citalopram...i dunno will the side effects get worse? i feel ive only just about managed these ones...

i dunno maybe I cant feel better, I wouldnt be shocked if I cant....ill just keep falling I guess.......