To the original question, yeah, and I can get pretty obnoxious. I had a HUGE and very fast shift quite a number of months ago. Zero to 120. It was so dramatic, even I couldn't help but notice, (though probably not recognizing the full extent ). Anyway, recognized it enough to tell BF, "Don't let me have any! Don't let me have any!", because I KNEW I would get a carried away. I was moving like a freight train. 5 minutes (??? haha, it might've been 3 seconds!) later, I'm grabbing at his drink. It was like playing keep away with a very determined child. He was totally perplexed, "Why tell me to not let you, then do this?!" Um... self-control's not my forte when hypomanic?

I've also had the bad habit of drinking when I'm depressed (which is far more of the time). I know know know this is stupid. I may think I'm feeling better at the time (though sometimes I go completely morose), but boy do I pay retail, mood-wise. Which of course can lead to a viscious circle if not acknowledged and dealt with.

It's not a big problem, it's extremely rare that I'd ever feel that I "need" one. If it's not around, I don't care. But if it's around, I could do better.

Right now I am in a determined (to get it to zero) phase. Doing well, but there's still room for improvement. Mantra... bad with meds, really don't have the money, calories I don't need (especially with what would be my choice this time of year), makes me totally unproductive, so why the heck do it?! There is a whole other reason and factor too, but that would be a post unto itself...