Try and be honest with yourself and feelings so you dont struggle , Im alot older and have a close male friend, I also tried to deny my feelings cause i thought he wouldnt see me that way, i was wrong he did, i love him in the more than a friendship way and did for a while but did the same, i was in denial,,i wish we could be together now, unfortunately theres other reasons why he feels we can't, I hope things work out for you guys...