((((turquoisesea))))

I don't say much and I read more than I speak, but I just wanted to let you know I understand about feeling sad and burned out. You're in a state of transition; the old life is about done and something new and unknown is on its way. On top of working so hard to finish and graduate it can be an overwhelming place.

I think I went through something similar when I retired from the military and transitioned to civilian life. I was grieving for my old life and scared to death of the new one. My identity was wrapped up in my uniform, and having to put that away was painful. The negative self-talk about "you'll never make it in the real world" was in full force. I did get through it though: I got a new job, moved from the East Coast to the Midwest, and now have been stable for a while. It may be different in a year or two and I may have to go through it all again, but right now I'm grateful for what I do have.

However, you're not a failure--far from it: you accomplished something that is important to your future. And it seems like it's crashing all around you right now, but when you close one door another one opens. It may not be the best one at first, but sooner or later you'll get there.

I may be wrong and I don't know if any of this will help you, but you're not the only one who's gone through this and it's not easy by any means, but it can be done. Be good to yourself and keep your chin up.

I'll go back to lurking now.