I have apologized to him. Multiple times. But the feeling is still there. I really want to get a counselor, I just need to find a way to get one without telling my parents face to face. The thought of that scares me so much But I think I might write a letter. I just have no idea how to word it effectively. Sigh.
Thank you so much for the support. It really means a lot to me to know that someone cares.