@lexie86
Thanks lexie and direction, 'the right thing' is that I am a friend, regardless of being a partner or not. So as a friend, all I can do is be here for her now, it just sucks I couldn't, in the end beat something so powerful... it sort of erks me, it is unstoppable... the depression, delusion, hate, anger, all from what seems as peace and happiness, which is always on the edge of a knife.

It doesn't bother me, that, I care about her so it affects me, I care that - people can be torn like this. Almost completely asunder by small events, and then it is then impossible to assure them. I can't save everyone... a realisation that I didn't want to accept. Really didn't. I get such EXTREME challenges set on me, I have been through a lot, and this one beating me, almost makes me lose some faith. Something handed me this, to look after this one... I'd like to believe everything happens for a reason, so... this is saying that the reason is, to tell me not everyone can be saved?