Right now, if that happens (which I'm not sure it will, I think he's just acting this way but won't go anywhere.... I hope he won't....) I don't want another guy. I have learned I am strong enough to take care of myself and my kids even through great adversity.

But healing is important when you lose someone. In a relationship you become part of each other and it is important to regain yourself, and get to know your new self.

I used to be very closed off from people unless I already knew them. One way I have worked to change this for me is to practice. When people at the store make chit chat like, "Cold enough for ya?" Instead of mummbling and looking away I answer them. Also at my job I get a lot of practice at this, as I'm the receptionist. I feel much more confident around people. My people anxiety is not as high as it was, that's for sure.[/quote]

Whatever happens, I wish you all the best, dark_heart_x.

Thank you for your suggestions. It is easier to succeed in any goal if one starts with small sub-goals first.