Just wanted to say that I'm hearing you. Why is it so hard to return to "normal" habits where you aren't constantly thinking about/regretting/overanalyzing or obsessing about everything that goes into your body? The stress of trying to maintain even a small weight loss from the last year has sent me over the edge. I'm a senior in college (it's almost finals week) and right now I'm trapped in daily cycles of binge eating, running an absurd amount to try and counter it, and feeling guilty that I don't have another way to control my stress. I'm rapidly gaining weight back that I have kept off for 6 months to a year, and it scares me. I just want to return to a healthy place where I'm not completely consumed with either eating way more than I should, or trying to eat perfectly and carefully.