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I woke up in a good mood.
I ate a good breakfast.
Went to visit a friend who needed some company.
Ended my visit when I felt it was appropriate, and did not let my friend hold me hostage for the entire day. After 3 hours of me patiently listening to non-stop talking, I decided I did not have to wait for her permission to end my visit. This was huge for me. It had been pre-argeed that I would be stopping by for coffee and a chat. Normally, I feel so bad for anyone who is lonely that I can not bring myself to disengage. By starting to do that, I will be able to retain, as friends, persons whom I care for, but who try to take too much control.
Came home feeling so glad that I challenged myself, and practiced a new skill, that I felt real motivated to attend to things needing attention. Did more housework. Organized some files.
Socialized briefly with some neighbors, but, again, extricated myself when I needed to get on with my own stuff. One can't let oneself be totally at any other person's disposal, barring some dire circumstance. Since childhood, I had a bad tendency to do that. I am learning new ways to negotiate socially. Very much needed that I do.
Tomorrow, I can re-read this and consolidate the lesson.
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