Just want to say if your new to recovery from what ever the issue is...ie drugs, sex, cutting, alcohol, etc etc... We do and can recover. Keep your heads up. I think if we treated ourselves the way we treat others we would get better one day at a time.....I stuggled with drugs since I was 11 years old ...I thought I was going to die before age 23...Ive feel like I live from one struggle to another...20 years of addiction...and the next 15 with bi-polar and recovery.Thanks to a good sponsor I got through the 12 steps and they have helped me.However, they arent like getting high..but simple and to the point...Working on self and making amends to myself and others has been one of the hardest things Ive been doing.I was my worst critic.An obsessed mind that gravitates towards negativity...Self-destruction was my plan..to die a little everyday...But, today is a new day and even if I suffer from bi-polar it hasnt been as worst as when I was stealing to get high and drunk...If I can assist anyone here Im always availiable...I dont have all the answers but I am in the process of recovery..Peter