I don't think he's abusive. I think he just says what he thinks, like he doesn't call me other names and is not disparaging or anything. He's not one to mince words. He's not mean to me at all. But I get lonely. It just feels worse now that he's always with those people. He's the same with others, even friends.

It is just hard to realize this.... and I wish it wasn't today that I realize it.