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Originally Posted by dark_heart_x
Hi, I can see you're in a hard place. I can see by your writing that you're going through a moment, here. That's okay. I have lots of moments myself.
Hey, I'm an artist too! Well, I'm a writer mostly. I am trying to write a novel. I've been trying since I was 12 to be a published author. At 13 my goal was to be "the youngest epic fantasy novelist in history!" That didn't turn out so well. Now I think it would be great if anyone would even read what I write. I'm 32. So, 20 years ago I had this huge dream that never took off. So, I hear what you're saying about feeling like you're not getting anywhere.
It really makes me mad, too. >.< I know I have the talent. I know I have the story. I just can't get it out! And what I do get out, no one reads. >.< So, yes, life is very annoying. On top of that, I fear my bipolar is eating my brain. I'm slipping away slowly but surely. It scares me to death.
So I totally relate to your frustration. But, that doesn't mean you have to be mean. Sounds like you have depression if you're on prozac? Depression is one of those illnesses that throws off your ability to take care of things. Steals your motivation. It isn't your fault, and it is good you're mad, really. Because being mad means you do still care. You don't want to give up and give in to this. You want to fight. You can turn that anger into fire in your belly. I know you can.
Depression is part of bipolar, so I know it can be so hard. Irritation, no focus, brain fog, exhaustion, insomnia. But, it is worth the fight. Even if it doesn't seem like that right now. It really is worth it.
Hang in there.
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ya thanks for reading my tripe
honestly i know that now (its worth it) but most of the time it feels like a steady climb.
maybe its good that way, have that behind you
the only way to produce is to bleed gallons.
its really not a way to live though
dealing with creative work is like rubbing up against an ex lover all the time if it means that much.
still
its your lifes work it is supposed to take ages, be off and on, and be really raw and unsatisfying 80% of the time ya
but least i believe you can slowly teach yourself to work on a schedule, work like a horse right?
if i can do that i think i can be happy. just.. figuring out the workflow. i am still young and ignorant about good work-flows.somehow i break the structure before it breaks me
we need a creatives thread. Where creatives talk amongst themselves about the grind
people who say "just do it" dont get it
will you ever go back to writing/ have you written things snce?
all i can say for you if you write anymore is, approach it like some menial task so its less likely to be torture. say "welp time to do the dishes/ scoop the kitty litter" and dont give starting much thought, like you would vacuuming
i JUST learned this
cheers ,tyvm