Okay, tomorrow is my weekly appointment. For the past few weeks I have asked to change the focus of our sessions to current family needs, my children's needs and how to cope. Last week at the end of our session T asked if I was ready this week to return to other needs-I said yes, but now I'm not sure! Just the thought of this scares me and triggers many memories. I have had a harder time than usual staying asleep each night. I know I need to get the past out, but I never have spoken of any of this out loud. I'm already in an agitated, restless state and this definitely isn't helping. I'm glad I'm off to work to get some relief from my mind!

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