I have all the same issues. I am starting to learn gratitude for certain things though. My sons, my counsellor, my doctor, my internet service that enables me to be on here, and little things..like the friendliness of the people here. I love the old wreath my late sister once made which is now hanging on my door, and I have a pretty view to look at in the morning. The fact that there is a convenience stor right across from our apartment building, a drug store and grocery store just down the street as well as my doc's office, so I don't have far to walk when I need things.