Hi Kj and all, thanks for having me here!
i'm not currently taking my meds: wellbutrin, adderall, ambien, klonopin (well i do take the klonopins sometimes) because of several reasons, like having 2 bipolar teenage kids, but mainly i'm wating for a new doctor through the county to help me with a good bipolar/adhd combo - i hated lamectal, prozac, cymbalta. But i realized today that i am fat fat fat! i dont fit in my clothes! i look pregnant! i've been doing so much self-soothing, nurturing, cuddling myself in my blankets, lazing around with my kitties, and eating everything in sight, starting to feel happy. i even thought i was getting better and can do this without meds. But today i'm fat and looking in the mirror, self-esteem so low, like what the heck happened. i did walk the treadmill for 2 10min sessions in the past week, but that was torturous to get myself that far. i know i will find a good doctor and get good help, but gosh, this is probably not ever going to be a smooth ride. Hugs and good luck to all.