I just came to a realization. Maybe my T didn't go that direction because she saw that I was feeding my intellectual curiosity outside of session. She may have thought that engaging in that way during session would have been a waste of time. Therefore, she concentrated on me getting in touch with my emotions. Or maybe she did explain stuff but I wasn't ready or able to 'hear' her.

It's just that it's taking me such a long time to get where I want to go. I guess there's no point looking back and trying to determine what might have worked better faster.

Thanks Echoes about your point of trying to control the process. I'm always feeling like if I don't direct the session, choose the topics, discuss issues I decide, then we'll just flop around directionless and not get anywhere at all.