I can totally relate. I finished school, which was dreadful, but now I work in an office where I have to talk to people all day and I just want to tell them to shut the hell up and let me work and go freaking home. This is not social hour, it's work, I'm only here because I need cash, other than that, I would leave right now.

It's like I crave the feeling of being connected to people and wanting to love and be caring, but I've always ran in to people that don't want that or fake it to get something...there's no one there to look out for me, so I'm like my own army and it's hard to watch my own back from all angles. The friends I used to have, we've all grown apart, and my family is crap.

My current boyfriend has to deal with me and I don't even want to deal with me. I sometimes just want to tell him I'm not worth it, he can do better, but I know I'm a great person, I just don't see others that way.

Sorry, I began rambling. Best Wishes to you, that's all I have to give.