Today just sucks. I was actually cycling when I woke up. I mean, seriously? Can't I even feel normal long enough to get out of bed? I've swung between depression and okay and angry so many times today it's unbelivable. Either I want to cry or I want to just scream and break everything in the room or I'm just kinda here. To top it off, I went to my doctor today for a follow up about bloodwork. Turns out the bloodwork indicated I have liver damage and insulin resistance. She said the liver damage, if verified, is probably from my psych meds. Yeah, as if I can quit those.

So I'm now I'm sitting here wondering if I should take an Ativan to see if it will stop the cycling or what. I'm allowed to take one as needed for anxiety. Does rapid cycling fall into that category?

Jeesh.