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Originally Posted by dusty9838
...but lately it's as if I can't keep my mind focused on anything. It's like I don't want to sit down or stand up... I don't want to lay down or get up and move around... I just don't want to do anything...
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Originally Posted by dusty9838
...sadly enough I'm writing them out as if maybe one day she'll come back into my life and read them so she'll know what kind of pain I was in without her... I'm a mess aren't I?  |
No, you're not a mess. You're going through a massive loss. And you're in the midst of the hardest stage.
Believe it or not...you're doing much better than I ever did. Even with my countless experience with relationships, my last "heartbreak" had me in bed for -over a year. I isolated myself in pain...I couldn't, didn't want to talk. But you're expressing your feelings and reaching out to others for help (and also, to help).
This is huge...considering that you're dealing with a loss of "a third of your life" relationship. Know that you're in the most painful place of mourning now. The rest of it will become more manageable once you move from this. (Myself --I'm still in recovery...but finally able to get out and enjoy physical activities on some rare days...)
Just do what you can to take care of yourself - when you can (every bit helps)...and I'm sure you will to come out of this way stronger than before.