I actually talked to T about what I wrote- I let her have my notes too-- I don't think she will get all of them, they were Beauflow style, and some incomplete thoughts and stuff lol

but still=- I feel this amount of weight lifted off of me, i feel i was more honest with t today as well-- that is a big plus.. talked about some things that i have issues sharing with others due to I know, I know they are not normal-- everyone yes does get mad, but my thoughts go to extreme which even at times scare me..... sigh... i hope t does not get mad about the part we did not get to talk fully about that I wrote down-- feeling of her trying to get rid of me- we did talk about partially at times I feel like quitting therapy which has a lot of influences in it-- that was just one i had not mentioned. maybe it is best for her to read it i think..