Hey everyone.
My question was this...I don't take drugs for my depression. It's cyclical, like I'll be depressed for a month or so then I'm not depressed at all, then anywhere from a week to months later it comes back. I think this is normal for those suffering from depression. Anyway, when I'm not depressed any longer, I feel like I'm the complete opposite of being depressed, and very happy with my life and the things in it (not bipolar though). But I do refuse to take medicine, and I think that's because I never want to be happy and have that happiness feel synthetic. I don't want to think 'Sure, I'm happy, but because I'm taking drugs to make me happy...' I want it to be real and know that it's ME feeling this way, not something ELSE forcing me to feel that way.
The problem is that my depression, as I'm sure most of you know who suffer from it, is...horrible. Last time was absolutely wretched - I think I was very close to doing something veryyyy stupid. I'm not me anymore, and it's the worst thing EVER. I cannot stand it and I fear its only going to get worse.
Ok - to the question: Is there anyway I can go on an anti-depressant when I'm feeling low, and come off it when I'm feeling better? And I mean in a week to month basis, not go on it for 2 years then come off it. I never know how long my episodes will last but I do know they eventually stop (atleast I know that now, when I'm happy). Now I don't have anything against anyone who takes AD's, I have family that does, but I just simply do NOT think they are for me. Any answers, thoughts? Thanks everyone.
(BTW - I've tried the other stuff to try and snap out of it like exercise, eating right, forcing myself out...none of that worked very well. Thanks!)