"Also, with the social anxiety, the whole time I'm in a social setting, all I'm thinking is "oh god, what are these people thinking of me? Are my pants zipped? Is there something in my hair? Was what I just said stupid and that's why no one reacted?"

I am exactly the same emptybee! I am going out tonight with my parents to a Christmas event and I have already re-checked myself 15 times, worrying about not having the perfect line to say or being invisible to everybody around me, am I making others nervous with my silence? I can totally relate to your situation emptybee. By the way...you are beautiful!

Why do we do this to ourselves?