I am now coming into relationship with my emotions and want to heal myself and am still unsure of my diagnosis of bipolar disorder. I still cling on to the hope that my body will heal itself on its own and that I don't need medication to help me. I have watched myself over the past year go into deep periods of depression, not wanting to move or being able to connect with anything I once found inspiring. Also being overwhelmed by all sorts of new ideas and concepts to the point that I couldnt keep up with them in relationship to who I am in the moment. So confused and despairing... from deep feeling of sucidial thoughts, that still run through my mind occasionally to overwhelming feelings of gratitude for the life we share on the planet. I was in therapy and in contact with my therapist through email, but out of the blue she stopped emailing me back with out any communication of ending communication. So I am unsure of what to do... if I will come into a state of balance on my own, if I really need therapy in general, if I was misdiagnosed and really have a personality disorder... I am praying for balance and clarity and peace for myself and all others who are struggling as well. bless you all.