Dr unk. (((here))) Taking a medication for what it is prescribed for is a good thing...I think you know this. Some ppl might take, say heroin, for depression because it "takes them away from their problems." An anti-depressant isn't like that, because, as Dr Unksunflower stated... an "AD" replaces something your body isn't making (or using) enough of. People who are not depressed can take an AD with no real effect, I think...(might not be so true with the nifty new ssnri's.. IDK)

I'm not an MD nor pharmacist doctor (nor do I play one on tv )

Noone, imo, "snaps out of " true depression. Not everyone who suffers with depression cycles like you are ... I am wondering if you might be experiencing a hormonal shifting that is depressing your system. Estrogen and progesterone have been known to do that. If you don't wish to see an MD about that either, I would suggest you try natural nutritional supplements like Evening Primrose Oil, and see if, during those depressive events, that it helps smooth out the lows?

Good wishes with this. Mindset is important...to get through, imo. Good CBT has the same effect, btw, as medication for depression (at 6 months ) and better results longer term, I think. TC!