Good posting! IMO, once we are able to build up some confidence in who we are, we become less effected by others.

Learning to trust ourselves first, will give us a base to build upon to trust others. Having feelings of paranoia does not make one paranoid. Trust issues are huge for those who have experienced a complete collapse of trust in those with that responsibility.

Small steps first. I agree with bipolar bear... you have taken a good step in identifying part of what is going on with you.

BTW (((monty))) I want to share with you that my requesting (ppl in chat usually) to not use reds or oranges is due to those colors causing migraines and seizures in susceptible ppl (me included.)

I will try and not use the color that triggers part of you, when I can remember. (Just like I try and not use a signature on posts in a few of the forums.) TC!