I don't think I ever compared my T with any T's in the books i read. I just gained a lot of technical understanding of how the brain works and with that understanding have been able to embrace the methods my T has utilized.

With that knowledge gained by my reading I offered less conscious resistance to her help. Of course, I still had unconscious resistance but could recognize it better just by noticing my actions and emotions. The supportive knowledge I acquired from books has helped me and is helping me tackle my problems better (I think).