I have recently started my old T again. I'm not totally sure this is a good idea, but I had to do something. The stress and OCD was driving me nuts. . .so, here I sit on his beige couch, again.

We were talking this past Thursday about this friend of mine, and her role in my life right now. She has become an incredible source of strength for me and is encouraging and nuturing as well. So what's the problem, right? Well, the problem is this. I've reached a place in my therapy where there are things that I can't say - literally. My throat closes around the words and I gag. . .over and over and over. It isn't because I don't feel safe with T, I DO, but saying these words is just too powerful for me. They have this control over me, and I can't verbalize them. T suggests I invite HER to come with me to a session. He knows she has this calming and soothing effect on me and his theory is that when I start getting wound up, having someone I totally trust close by can help me get THROUGH the anxiety and panic and we can come out on the other side.

I think the man has COMPLETELY lost his mind personally. Kim already knows the stuff I'm in therapy for, but this is SO incredibly intimate. We're not just talking about her knowing what is said, but her actual presence as it is being said. What do I do? I've told T, "No way man. . .no way I can do that." And his response was, "you've already done so much you didn't think you can do, just consider it."

Advice? Suggestions?