Hi, I'm nikki, I just joined a few minutes ago...

I'm having alot of trouble determening my mental health. alot of times I think I'm going crazy, and sometimes I think im over reacting, but I need some help.

I will see or hear things and not be sure if they are real or not. if I'm around a group of people I may suddenly get very paranoid and think they all think I'm a joke, and that the whole school thinks that way, too. And I'll walk down the hall with the feeling that everyone is staring at me and talking about me.

My friend and I were sitting in a car a few weeks ago, and he told me that he was imagenary and just a hillucination. I asked, well, how did we get here? this is your car, and you were driving. he answered that I was the one that was driving it, and that it was a neighbor's car. then he cme up with the possibility that I walked here, and I'm not even in a car, or just sat in a car already parked here.

him being imaginary is pretty possible. if either one of died, the other one would probably never know unless it was on the news or something. I don't know anyone he knows, and he doesn't know anyone I know.

So now I'm questioning everything I see and wondering if my best friend is even real. I feel like I'm losing my mind. I have no idea what's going on. I'm not attached to anything, and I feel like I'm being left out of my own life.

I am going to therapy, but when ever I go in, my mind goes blank and I can't talk about nything that I wanted to.

pleasehelp if you can... tell me what you think about all this...