I don't know how much longer i can take this... It seems like I have no one and nothing left. There is no one that even acknowledges that I exist anymore. It seems like no one would care if live or die. I feel as if I don't do anything anymore besides things to harm myself, I have started cutting every night again, and every night i test myself by going deeper and deeper... just to see how far I can go. I have also cut out breakfast lunch and most dinners...I have also began drinking again... just to be as far from reality as possible. My psychiatrist recommended that i should stop seeing her after the sixth session because i wasn't giving the effort to get better and that it was just wasting my parents money. I am fifteen and I feel like I have no reason to stay alive anymore. The pills do nothing at all... I have nothing that makes me special or any talent at all. I am sorry if this is not the right place to be posting this but I just really am not my strongest right now. I really need help and i can't turn to my parents because i have major trust issues and i am horrible with bringing up things to them. I am also pretty sure that I am gay...