In the last few months, I have withdrawn from my friends and acquaintances, because they are exhausting me.
I have been really into spending time by myself. the only human contact I have are my co-workers (who I do not hang out with outside of work), and my boyfriend (who hasn't been home, was in and out of mental hospital), plus the boyfriend's mom and dad (who live an hour away from me, and only text me)
I used to be bummed out when I get on facebook and see how everyone's hanging out with each other, but now I don't feel that way. In fact, I am planning on a one person hike to celebrate my birthday.
At this point, I can honestly say that I am in the process of 'breaking up' with the friends I was once close with. I am not sure if I am planning on making new friends either. I know in my current situation (diagnosed with anxiety, in a rocky relationship with someone with major depression), I should have friends for support, but I just can't bring myself to be around friends right now. Is this weird? Bad? Has this happened to anyone else?
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