Neurontin - I applaud your efforts in challenging your addiction. Some do struggle with the 12 step program which has the basic core religious belief system and yes it works so well for some. If a person has personal issues from their past where they struggle with this concept, there are other programs that cater to this. Are you a member of the 12 step program? Here's a link for a good non secular group:

http://lifering.org/about-lifering/