I tried to do the old job search again but I don't know if I got anywhere. I phoned about 4 or 3 jobs and some of them were not aviable but they were on the job site. They were probably out of date and one wanted a person to be in southend but I'm in shoebury. But one said I should phone tomorrow to book a appointment. I don't know if I should. I might just be rejected like always. I was in the lounge and the dogs started barking and I got so angry, I started bashing the door. urghhh My elbow and hand hurt after. Luckily, the door wasn't damaged. I feel like my future is hopeless. I might as well be homeless. It's so impossible to get a job but I am trying. I do know a career I want to do either a childcare career or business administration. I'm going to do a course in January but still worried about whether I would get a work placement. Why me? Why do I have to have no job? But all my other friends do. My boyfriend got his job at 22. And I'm 18. Maybe I'm little young to work? I should continue studying. I don't know. I would like to help people with English. I thought of doing lessons online but paid. But I have to be a qualified English teacher. Why am I always the odd one out? should I just wait a year or two until I find a job? Maybe someone is telling me it's not my time to have a job. I don't know. I wasn't meant to be here or to have a job. I'm sorry. Thanks for reading my rubbish.