I'm so sorry, granite, that life sux. I wish you had asked your T one more question, the one she invited you to ask, because I'm sure the reason she invited you was so she could tell you that she wasn't angry.

Are there any other feelings you might take for anger? Something that sux less, like impatience maybe.

You seem to remember the session pretty well, & it sounds (to me) like there was some good stuff accomplished. You understood what she said about a T's job being to talk & not to do--like she's not going to come to your house & get you if you didn't show up for a session! That's good to know.

You two care so much about each other. I don't think she could ever be really angry with you. It wouldn't be professional--& she is very professional.

I'm not sure, though, that it wasn't fair of you to expect her to answer your question about what she would have done if you had missed those two sessions. That seems like a fair enough question to me. Maybe she was a little less than perfect there. But no one is perfect, right?

Hang in, granite. It may not feel like progress when it's so painful, but even a quarter inch closer is getting there.

Roadrunner