yeah, that was my issue too. Need to feel something. Old people joke that when something hurts, it means you are alive. Well, I quite young, at times pain is the only proof I am alive. My numbness was natural though.... so in a way I cannot understand why would anybody want to feel like that (i think there is also difference between subtances that provide temp numbness and being flatlined on long term.... Few hours of numbness when we want it may be desirable.... long term inability to have and express emotions can be dangerous imho. And being numb when it comes to interaction to other people can give a way to manipulation and other nasty things).