You need to be strong and reach out when you feel you want to cut or hurt yourself in any other way. Call your pdoc, or your T, or a close friend, or your husband.

I found Ativan great to mellow me out. Sometimes also made me drowsy enough to just sleep, and get over my immediate emotions.

I'm nit sure how long you've been on Wellbutrin, or what your dosage is, but I find it really makes me irritable. And it's a bit more difficult to fall asleep, and to have a deep sleep.

This is your health, and your life and your family. You have a right to be helped, but you need to learn to ask for it.