I, too, had a lot of "friends" in my past. I've come to not really believe in friends anymore. That may be cynical. But, I had these friends from high school. We were a close knit group and stayed close as young adults. I thought they all had my back. It was at 18 when I started having my major delusions about the "mysterious building" and the "secret agent organization" that had their headquarters there. They actually all played along with it and egged me on. That delusion lasted until I was in my twenties when it just faded away and I forgot it. But during that time I also married my ex to get away from the situation I was in (it was a mistake, I didn't love him.) Anyway, these friends also became his friends, and when I finally got the strength to divorce him they all went with him to be his friends.

So I have my husband now, and I have one friend at work, and family members, and that's it. I have 18 friends on facebook and most of them are cousins, but all are relatives. They dont' really talk to me that much on there. I always feel like the black sheep.