The title is a good description of how I feel right now. My doctor and I are doing everything we can to keep me out of the hospital during this manic phase and yesterday she added to my meds.

An old friend I do not like: Seroquel XR. I hate this stuff. I know it's necessary. But I can't stand it. I feel like I am going backwards and losing ground. I haven't needed an antipsychotic in years. ARRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!

I am living in molasses, moving through molasses, and attempting to function in molasses. Ah yes, did I mention, The manic is under wraps. At least until the seroquel XR goes away. Maybe I'll get lucky and this will be short term.

Can anybody relate? I just need someone to say I hear you and your not alone. I feel so alone right now. I live alone with my dogs. I am feeling lost.

Thanks for listening.