Well I think you are very good at expressing yourself, and even if you don't think that is a valid point, and you still think that you are not good at anything, it really doesn't matter. You are still deserving of love. I'm sorry you feel people don't care. Yes, it can feel like that sometimes for all of us. that's where self-esteem needs to kick in but of course that is easier said than done. It took me a long time to get there myself. Is any of your sadness related to you thinking you may be gay? There is absolutely nothing wrong with being gay you know. Do your parents know? If they don't do you think they will accept you if you told them?