hi clarity....i don't really know the answer to your questions. do you have a t that understands dissociative disorders? i only lost time in the beginning after (and before ) being diagnosed with did. but i would find very different styles of clothes and run into people that said they knew me and i definitely did not know them. i hear how you are struggling to understand you and it's hard work with a t. as far as for me it would be impossible for me without a t who is knowledgeable about dds. ...hugs if okay......kasva