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Old Dec 06, 2011, 08:29 PM
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Originally Posted by Fairy39 View Post
So yesterday i had a group at hospital. At the start of it the nurses talked about assertiveness "people taking advantage of you, not being able to say no etc" I got anxious and triggered straight away breathing too fast but tried to stay in the room. Then this guy said "i used to be passive now i am attacking people" and he began raising his voice and explaining the things he does. I just ran out of the room. Found a bench to sit on then had to take a lot of deep breaths to get my breathing in control while i shook and cried uncontrollably. It was horrible. I told one of the nurses in the office that i just took a big panic attack she told me to get a drink and to try and bring it down. I really didn't want to go back in to the group once i had calmed down but did and then i was anxious for the rest of the group. I asked to see the female nurse who ran the group but she was busy straight after it so she said the male nurse was free. I said that was ok but then i just thought i can't speak to a man about the rape, abuse and issues with men so i just left without getting support. I came home and just sobbed and cried for the rest of the afternoon. Tried phoning to get hold of a female nurse but they were all in a meeting and haven't phoned me today. I feel hellish today now. I just need to get this out of me.
It hangs me up, too, having to talk to a man about abuse. And that leaves me without support many times.

I empathize with this.

When my aunt died, I could not reach out for support; I was too upset. Then the counselor said she would be outside (2009) and she wasn't. I was really upset about that. Then they said, "Billi, you could have knocked on her door". and I said, "She said she would be outside". I could not reach out. I needed her to be there. I was just not in a place to reach out, but I still needed help.

sometimes it's hard to ask for things. And then when we do and no one answers (nurses in a meeting, in your case, and not calling you back) it can feel really bad.

Billi
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