not lose my temper with my kids right now. My oldest loses ALL volume control when she gets tired and she is being so loud I am about ready to totally lose it. My middle one turns into a major whiner and tantrum thrower. I was fine and then I started cycling big time about an hour ago. My husband is at a dinner provided by his supervisor (since it's only the guys who work in the shop--he's a broadcast engineer--we suspect there is an alterior motive there since he's pissed off at them) so I'm getting zero relief. I'm also trying to keep them up until he gets home, which may not be until 10.

I am not a slapper or hitter but I can be a yeller and I am about to that point. I don't like being that way. I could take an Ativan but I really don't want to take it at any time other than at night. My psych doc said to take one if I need to in order to help control anxiety but I try to avoid it.

I just have to hang in there another hour until their bedtime. Anybody can do anything for just an hour, right?