I don't think that I deserve much of anything. I also think that me being gay is a factor in my depression. It is mostly the fact that I feel that me being gay prevents me from fitting in with others and that if I came out the would dislike me even more. If i were to tell my parents that I was gay, they would probably accept me for who I am. Even though they would accept me, I still am not able to tell them because of my communication issues. I also feel like the major contributing factor is the fact that I am an over thinker. Every time i get a reason to live, my mind happens to find a way around it and then I go back to be depressed. The only way I found to get around it is to cut... cutting leaves me emotionally drained and then i don't have to think about anything. I just wish I had a reason to live.