I have the worst habit of pushing people away, they try to be my friend but I`m always so afraid I`ll mess it up that I will keep them at a distance. I feel uncomfortable around almost everyone, even family, and am close to completely isolating myself really soon. I`m so afraid to even talk to my brother, I`m pretty sure that I`ve never had a full conversation with him ever because I`m afraid I`ll say something completely stupid and he will stop loving me. I only have one friend left from high school and even then I`m scared of rejection. I`m afraid I`ll do something wrong and totally my friendship with him. Even though we are good friends he barely knows anything about me and had told me I`m mysterious , it`s not that I don`t want to tell him anything about myself its just that I`m afraid it will destroy everything I worked so hard to achieve. I`m tired of constantly pushing everyone away, tired of isolating myself, and tired of never letting one get to know the true me. I just don`t know what to do