It seems like I have a hard time "remembering" the good times I've had. They don't stick with me. I need constant recharging, and get triggered and jealous when someone does something I want to do. My T can afford these pleasure trips and that makes me angry. I want to cry about it, and have a huge tantrum!!!!

WePow: I need to cry but I'm holding back, even to myself. My H said we could go to Alaska or the Canadian Rockies sometime though we need passports for the latter. He's been there on business trips but I haven't. I'm scared to travel but I love it at the same time! I feel like I'm getting too old to go anywherel though I know that's not true. I want to see more places before I get old and sick. I feel like life is over and I don't have anything to look forward to. I don't believe him that we will ever travel again.

Travel always triggers me in one way or another.