So, it's been a month since I saw my pdoc, and the last time he upped my lamictal from 100 mg to 400 mg. He also suggested ECT. I told myself I would give it a month and see how I feel, but I feel about the same. Maybe a little better, but not much. Had a halfway decent day yesterday, but that didn't last long, and i ended up just laying in bed for 5 hours yesterday afternoon. I woke up this morning pretty agitated, like I have been the past few days.

Anyways, I had an appt with my GP yesterday, and asked him his views on ECT, and he said that it was a safe procedure, that he had seen done before. Then he asked me if it was that bad (well duh, i wouldn't be asking if it wasn't). He also said that if he had tried all the alternatives, he would do it b/c it's so effective, and the short term memory loss, wouldn't bother him, if he felt that bad. He also said, he didn't see why it's not used earlier in treatment.

I'm also going to ask about disability, and see what the Pdoc will say about that. I really can't work being depressed as I am, not to mention every little thing stresses me out, and makes me depressed.