Well, to me happy is just opposite of being proactive. Would there be revolutions if everybody was happy? We had recently a debate on school web about being driven and moving to far off places versus fullfilling all your dreams and being happy where you are. I just think that dissatisfaction is needed to drive us forward. And I don't want to be happy if there situation is bad.

for me hypomanic... isn't me. I am probably bit bellow the baseline in my normal. And well, I guess this is cultural too.... I joked with somebody the other day about how I fake everything is fine and said that in Czechlands you don't really need to fake, because everybody looks miserable and pissed off all the time. American smile is a negative catchphrase here.

So as much as I enjoy my highs (to the degree of refusing treatment, because I do not want to lose that intensity), they are just one of emotional ranges.... and I much much more prefer to be happy for a reason. Not be all euphoric and yay because I am in stress