I really can't live at all like this.

I've got a GP late surgery appt tomorrow. My CPN is already seeing me Friday, but he's going to come to the house instead of me going to him. I don't think I'll be up to it, even thought my mother is home.

On 19th I have to see my Psych doc. He only works monday and tuesdays. My mother has no holiday left to take at work. How can I be there, and be with my dogs? The rest of my family is dead. I have no friends who can help.