(((Buttercup))) - I'm sorry you're very upset but don't take it out on yourself and you're not wicked. You're also not responsible for your mom's feelings. I don't know your story but if they want a statement, then you can do this. Can you have something close to you be by your side? We're here holding virtual hands. Try to take some calming breaths. Don't worry about this affecting Christmas...you'll get back on track for the holidays.