skysblue: It's both, I think. The trip is symbolic of dreams that haven't been fulfilled, places I'd like to go, and of the aging process. You give me encouragement because of your travels!

I've traveled to some foreign countries and it was a huge accomplishment for me because of my many fears. Flying is stressful but I do it anyway. I feel like I'm risking my life when I get on an airplane which is totally illogical since driving a car is much more dangerous!

I HAVE done things in my life recently that I thought I'd never do. I posted about them, I think, in one of your threads. They are extremely fulfilling!

I always want what other people have, so there's a little of that in my jealousy. Like: if my T can go to Hawaii, why can't I? If my friend can travel all over, why can't I? I have the "it's not fair" attitude, and feel like I've been cheated. But I HAVE traveled a fair amount. It's the same pattern of wanting MORE.