No, I didn't tell her I didn't want to see her again. I was still hanging onto the idea that I could finish with some sense of resolution or closure. I told her that, and she said she thinks closure will only take one session.

I am so relieved to have not heard from her since my last text. There is nothing, nothing at all, that she could say now that would help, and every time I interact with her I become completely dysregulated. I need some space, and she's giving me buckets full of it. It feels good.

At this point I don't think I will see her again, but I also know myself well enough to know that how I feel now may not be how I will feel a week from now, so I'm not making a final decision now. Or at all. I don't think I have to make a "final decision" at all, I will just do what feels right.